When I first began my trek into witchcraft, the concept of mind, body, and spirit being connected in such a way that they actually affect each other was very new to me. Up until that point, I had felt that these three parts of what makes me a whole person seemed very disconnected. In fact so disconnected that parts seemed to even be shattered. As I learned about the concept I began to understand that they are Supposed to be connected but I had a very difficult time understanding it fully. I just couldn’t make the connection.
My teacher tried to explain it in the most simple way and although I understood it was a belief and that somehow these were connected like with an invisible cord or whatever I didn’t really understand how much they affect the whole. I will go a little into my story. From the time I was a child, I had gone through terrible traumas such as abuse, house fires and even things as minor as an unstable environment. We moved constantly. I had terrible night terrors. I often woke up the household and sometimes had neighbors pounding on the door in the middle of the night with my shrill screams of terror. Through the course of my life from birth up, my spirit had been damaged. Shattered in a way. It affected my sleep and my mental and physical state of being.
I didn’t make that connection then. My health began to deteriorate. I developed diseases like Hashimoto’s Hypothyroidism which effects the mind and emotional balance as well as my physical health. I still didn’t make the connection of how much one aspect is so connected to the others that it affects the whole. I can’t say that I am in perfect health because I am not. Even when I am at a reasonably healthy weight my other functions such as cholesterol and vitamin D3 were not good. Depression, anxiety, insomnia are the result of how a shattered soul or damaged spirit and my physical diseases contribute to battles of the health of my mind which is a direct blow to my spirit which is a direct effect of my physical health. It is like a kinetic circle of energy that flows and connects and affects each part.
Yeah, yeah, I got it, so I thought. It wasn’t until last year that I actually got the connection of how the mind, body and spirit actually affect one another. a couple of years ago the means and timing came for me to receive a little counseling. a few pieces of my spirit were finding their way back. With lots of scars, I might add. The next thing I know I’m sick again. Only this time instead of my thyroid medication being raised it was dramatically being lowered. there was some improvement in my thyroid function. Over the next couple of years, little pieces have been put back in its now damaged and ill-fitting place to heal but yes leaving emotional and mental scars. My health, although still poor is improving, slowly. Still didn’t really make that connection. I understood the concept, but I really didn’t know.
A Year ago, after a long haul of some heavy extractions of toxicity from my life because of my spiritual healing, I came about to stop eating gluten. I didn’t know what that would actually mean for me and I’m in no way suggesting that it is the right thing for you but that I discovered that for me gluten was not my friend. At the time, I didn’t really believe it. I didn’t know if the change would bring any results. But because of my spiritual healing, my mind was beginning to heal and I was desiring change for my physical health.
I stopped the gluten, The physical symptoms of fatigue and such began to go away, The acid reflux was barely noticeable if at all experienced. The physical pain was being alleviated. Ok, this is great, eliminating a few things from my diet make me feel better. Where I was once merely existing, I now feel clear minded. Going on a year later, I am still healing and I am still changing, but now I know with clarity how the mind, body and spirit are connected and how they each affect the other. My cholesterol which at one point was to the sky, now I don’t need medication, my thyroid medication holding at a lower dose, I can walk farther, which affects how I feel. It affects my mental clarity and mindset. My spiritual being or my soul continues to heal just as my body continues to heal.
I have a ways to go and I will never be as perfect as the day I came into this world, but now I have a deeper understanding of the connection of whole. No wonder the rune symbol I saw as a toddler was Sowilo. The Rune of Wholeness. This is my journey. Mind, Body, and Spirit.
P.S. I believe your life has meaning and purpose. I would love to hear your story. What is your lesson? what is your journey? what is the road your are on? What does your life mean to you? What does your life have to teach you? Where do you fit into this world of existence? You Matter.
I love reading this kind of story however even though thier is something very obviously seen in my daily life. I continue to hold on to the practice i have made to talk with souls and see them without any reasons, but some i do believe that someone could help me and practice this kind of gift, i do. make also some witch magic often.
i hope i could learn more and help others.
You know as I read your story it came to me that can it be possible that we journey to Wiccan because we have had all these issues in our lives and we are in turn reaching to the spirits our believes to start our healing. I have had a really similar situation as yours as a young girl i was molested i didnt remember it came in a dream as a teen my mother’s boyfriend hit her she got pregnant and my sister had trisomy 18 and spina bifida past on at 3months she started drinking on my 15 birthday my mother kicked me out because i hit her boyfriend trying to protect my brother i was struggling had my first daughter at 18 then left her dad and went on had 2 more kids also had domestic violence alcoholics drug addicts cheaters ect. In my relationships then as time went on being in great health i was diagnose with gallstones,psoriosi, psoriotic arthritis, sciatica, rheumatoid arthritis, depression, anxiety, ptsd,ovarian cysts, and many more…aside from all that my son ran away…got into drugs..now his again gone but this time for good since his almost 18 i feel sick all the time i been single for 6 years and one day i started getting into meditation because the meds where not helping and i have been trying to learn more and about wicca the history herbs stones ect i draw as a way to get my anxiety and my feelings out i started a journal and a book of shadows with my learnings i do not feel ready for the actual spells yet but i am also practicing my spirituality at the same time…i have been having weird things happend any way i appreciate you taking the time to make this web site is helping me a lot thank you all for listening.
It sounds like you have had a tough journey. I believe that is why so many turn to religion in general. Wicca happens to be one of those religions that is self-empowering in the way that we are responsible for our lives, Our health, all inclusive to physical mental and spiritual. For many, including myself it may be the first time to be responsible. Not only are we faced with and realize our own responsibility of our lives but with Wicca and Witchcraft we are given the Power to take control over our own lives. For those of us who have endured such hardships, tragedies, abuse etc, it is the control over our lives that we may never have before. Instead of giving up our will and our control to someone or something else, we are given the opportunity to take back that control and the permission to use our own free will to accomplish what we need in our life for our own benefit. I know many 12 step programs give up that will because they believe that it was the use of the free will that got people in trouble. However, I believe it is the opposite. I believe lives are out of control and that this will and control are given back by Wicca and Witchcraft and therefore we have our power back. The first place many of us begin with is with healing old wounds that prevent us from taking control of our lives. I also believe as we heal our experiences, it leaves scars that add strength to us and for most we acquire specific skills that we developed through these difficult times. We begin by mending that connection between our mind, body and spirit. Some stay with Wicca and some outgrow it. I think it is a great place to start and yes I believe the best place to begin is with healing. I wish you well on your journey. 🙂
I was raised a “Christian”, and to be honest,it just never felt right to me…I guess the teachings made sense, but it just didn’t seem like it was real. so thats why I decided to look deeper in myself for the truth. At least the truth that I feel pertains to me…and at this point in my life, Wicca seems to be supplying the best tools and means for me to accomplish this task. I’m new to the craft, and so I thank you for providing thoughtful responses to all of our questions! Blessed be!
Thank you. I know I am only one perspective and I suggest, as you learn, grow and explore your journey you will find many other perspectives to influence you. 🙂 Never stop exploring. Many blessings to you Earlsworth. And Many Blessings to all who are exploring on their journey.